Resistance is a funny thing.
Resistance?
In modern psychoanalysis resistance is a fundamental roadblock in treatment and maturity. A right of passage. A refusal to deal with negative emotions. An avoidance, typically of anger. However the appearance of the avoidance depends on the person. Sex, drugs, alcohol, eating, gambling, isolation, relationship codependency, skipping therapy sessions. And even schizophrenia, depression, OCD, narcissism, and a plethora of mental disorders and neurosis. The ego retracts into safety, into what the ego knows is familiar. Safe.
Recently, with attempts to build an online business, I’ve been met with my own frustrations and resistances. Like the avoidance of my website. The refusal to write blogs, short stories, reviews. The inability to update my followers when new music and videos are released. And I’m decent with updating social media, it’s really just the website which is the most important piece of the puzzle. The piece that’s mine. I blame the failed migration attempt where I tried transferring thebadboob.com from wordpress.com to wordpress.org. The whole migration was a failure and left me unsure of the future of my website. I don’t want to build subscribers and readers on wordpress.com when I could transfer to wordpress.org later down the road. Sound annoying.
I’ve since contacted a new host about a professional website transfer.
Could a pro be the solution to my problems, or should I avoid wordpress.org
all-together? Time will tell. Always.
I’ll admit. I almost abandoned my website while trying to solve the conundrum of **where to build the site**.
In the meantime i’ve been continuing to work on music with a quick mixtape called Are You Pissed Yet? A three track EP for light summer listening. No deep dive discography. Just three straight forward bass bangers.
I could’ve combined these tracks with my last EP, but the project felt like it could stand on two feet. And personally, I needed shorter projects to attract listeners. Ten to thirteen track projects can seem intimidating, even to the most hungry of listeners.
I’m going to try and put real attention into my website over the next few months – perfecting what makes a website attractive and worthy of spending time. This may include replacing copyrighted material and gifs with my own personalized animations. How will I create these? Who knows, but we’ll figure it out.
In the meantime, I’m not going to leave my laptop unattended. Especially with the incoming heat wave, no excuse. Figure out a home for thebadboob.com and commit to creating art.
done.
THE BADBOOB 