In modern psychoanalysis resistance is a fundamental roadblock in treatment and maturity. A right of passage. A refusal to deal with negative emotions. An avoidance, typically of anger. However the appearance of the avoidance depends on the person. Sex, drugs, alcohol, eating, gambling, isolation, relationship codependency, skipping therapy sessions. And even schizophrenia, depression, OCD, narcissism, and a plethora of mental disorders and neurosis. The ego retracts into safety, into what the ego knows is familiar. Safe.
Recently, with attempts to build an online business, I’ve been met with my own frustrations and resistances. Like the avoidance of my website. The refusal to write blogs, short stories, reviews. The inability to update my followers when new music and videos are released. And I’m decent with updating social media, it’s really just the website which is the most important piece of the puzzle. The piece that’s mine. I blame the failed migration attempt where I tried transferring thebadboob.com from wordpress.com to wordpress.org. The whole migration was a failure and left me unsure of the future of my website. I don’t want to build subscribers and readers on wordpress.com when I could transfer to wordpress.org later down the road. Sound annoying.
I’ve since contacted a new host about a professional website transfer.
Could a pro be the solution to my problems, or should I avoid wordpress.org all-together? Time will tell. Always. I’ll admit. I almost abandoned my website while trying to solve the conundrum of **where to build the site**.
In the meantime i’ve been continuing to work on music with a quick mixtape called Are You Pissed Yet? A three track EP for light summer listening. No deep dive discography. Just three straight forward bass bangers.
I could’ve combined these tracks with my last EP, but the project felt like it could stand on two feet. And personally, I needed shorter projects to attract listeners. Ten to thirteen track projects can seem intimidating, even to the most hungry of listeners.
I’m going to try and put real attention into my website over the next few months – perfecting what makes a website attractive and worthy of spending time. This may include replacing copyrighted material and gifs with my own personalized animations. How will I create these? Who knows, but we’ll figure it out.
In the meantime, I’m not going to leave my laptop unattended. Especially with the incoming heat wave, no excuse. Figure out a home for thebadboob.com and commit to creating art.
On May 19th, I released an EP called Amygdala Hijack.
Ever experienced fight, flight, freeze, or fawn? Ever experienced a panic attack? A rush of emotion, distortions and confusion. Ever been under threat of annihilation? Grasping for survival?
The Amygdala Hijack refers to a natural physiological and psychological reaction to threatening or dangerous events. A survival mechanism initiated at signs of threat or times of duress. The amygdala is the part of the brain responsible for survival instincts, emotional processing, and decision making. Also playing a large role in the behavior of the narcissist. A narcissist’s drive is typically based on immediate self gratification and the survival of the self, seeking short term rewards out of entitlement. A reversion to the snake in the grass, the lizard brain that dominated our human and evolutionary ancestors.
Here we have a contrast of information, the psychopath is functioning from a place of self-centered and callous entitlement, based on the amygdala, while simultaneously experiencing less fear from the amygdala in pursuit of said selfish goals.
Narcissism, in my opinion, is the ultimate Amygdala Hijacking of the human mind. A permanent life sentence from the age of 2 years old, an inversion of chemistry due to an overwhelming environment on the infant psyche. What happens when an infant is overwhelmed and neurotic with negative emotion, trapped in a cesspool of anger, bitterness, and betrayal? The mind of the infant turns the anger onto the ego, forever trapping the narcissist in permanent diagnosis. A life sentence, more or less.
As the narcissist leaves a trail of death, disease, and destruction.
The EP focuses on the unconscious process of making music – the process of letting go and thinking later. The last few months have proven stressful, unsure of the future, and unsure whether my art can provide sustenance to the world and myself. Can you actually make a living doing what you love?
Instead of trying to “write the best banger of the year”, I just write what I feel. Which lately is a lot. And instead of resorting to the familiar dark places, the self loathing, the self attack; the depression, I’ve been focused on writing music and creating art. Rewiring a brain that’s quick to excite. A brain that calls the Amygdala Hijack home. But life on the edge, 24/7, is no way to live. And after the past few years of chaos, I’m ready to retrain how I handle the pressures of feeling overwhelmed, helpless, alone, overstimulated, or depressed. The Amygdala Hijack EP is a reminder to resist the terrorists causing mutiny aboard your ship. To express yourself unforgivingly in the face of chaos and the unknown. To resist the primal pull of the lizard brain.
P.S. I’ll try and do a better job posting blogs.
Also I wrote this on an empty stomach. Don’t forget to feed yourself during the creative process.
An ode to old manufacturing hubs, dilapidated steel mills, abandoned coal mines, and forgotten tanneries. An attempt to resurrect the influences of my past. Places: Worcester. Pittsburgh. Philadelphia. Athens, Ohio. The Poconos. Cities, towns, locations once bursting with opportunities and approaching horizons only to be shipped overseas for pennies on the dollar.
No denying the impact abandoned infrastructure, bitter winters, and warehouse raves have on my production. I tend to focus on the gritty, raw, and boom bap energy of the east coast compared to the west coast’s sunny day squelches. This EP relates more to The Ford F150 than a Corvette Convertible. Think four wheel drive. Oversized rims. Industrial machinery. Leather hands. Beer belly. Burger King bag. And don’t forget the MAGA hat. The cherry on top.
I wrote the majority of these songs in one day; in fact. NEURO STORM, Red Bull Beatdown, and MADE IN THE USA were produced together in one day after consuming, yes, a Red Bull energy drink. I recorded one of my favorite tracks to date, NEURO STORM, completely caffeinated. I don’t usually drink caffeine. But decided to try it on this rare occasion.
I’m not going to become a regular consumer of Red Bull or energy drinks, or caffeine in general. But honestly I was pleased with the results. Until my anxiety attack around 10 PM. Whoops.
I’m tired of recording crappy beats. The past year I’ve gone to lengths recording as much music as possible and it never seems like enough. I always need better sound design, better arrangement, better mixing, better mastering, better promotion, less social self destruction. It’s not an easy task, becoming a music producer.
I keep hearing it takes seven years or so.
Reflecting on my music journey….
I spent roughly six months playing around with Maschine from Native Instruments. This was after I saw tsuruda, and he dropped internet slaps vol.1. Another key moment… catching Flying Lotus at Moog Festival. Lotus played classics like “Zodiac Shit”, Aphex Twin’s Mt. Saint Michel, and captivated the crowd with recent releases from Little Snake – a game changer in experimental bass music. Somebody was gracious enough to catch the moment I wanted to become a music producer on camera.
After a music festival run and continued practice with Maschine, I moved to Ableton and bought a Microbrute analog synthesizer. I wanted to learn sound design, and continued collecting pedals and synths until realizing I spent the past five-six years accumulating instruments and never writing any music.
I thought collecting a Make Noise 0-Coast, Microbrute, or Drumbrute would capture the sound of G Jones or Bleep Bloop, after all, both mentioned the impact of analog synthesizers on their releases.
As my sound deign skills progressed, I realized the majority of my Ableton music production revolved around sampling and resampling. Which doesn’t require a five hundred dollar synthesizer. In fact, the expensive software synthesizers work great! Or even Vital, which is free. After years of staring at two desks full of equipment, I decided to slim down the studio. Not to mention moving into a cockroach ridden apartment, which helped ease the burden of letting items go.
I sold guitar pedals, synthesizers, drum machines, midi controllers, and began leaning into the “ethos” of production I learned from one of my favorite artists “woulg”.
Learning how to create a bassline from an “amen break”, risers from any sample, percussion from foley. It’s about staying creative and providing NO BARRIERS TO ENTRY. You don’t need a five hundred dollar synthesizer to create worthwhile bass music. You just need copy of Ableton or DAW. Hell, O-Prime Delta uses Audacity to create the wonkiest track’s you’ve ever heard.
It can be off-putting when you scroll upon your favorite producer’s multi-screen, multi-instrument, analog recording equipment while you’re sitting with a MacBook Pro. But honestly. It’s everything you need and more, says Richard Devine himself.
Skrillex, Little Snake, Woulg. Just a few prodigies who changes electronic music with consumer products. An Apple laptop and some headphones.
Gear makes a difference, sure, but so does your technical ability and know how. I’d rather be fluent in my technical skill than fumbling with a new machine all the time. Not to mention, I enjoy woulg’s barrier to entry argument. It’s not “punk rock” to require expensive items when expressing yourself. However, using what you have at your disposal is DIY energy.
Punk energy.
Using nothing but a laptop? Sick. Easy. No wires, cords, maintenance, routing. No more screaming,
“Why won’t this fucking instrument make a sound?”
I skipped a lot of the bullshit moving to a digital setup, and instead of searching empty project files, my time is now spent organizing finished projects. I don’t spend hours jerking off cords and arranging synthesizers. I open my laptop and start making music. Seriously, you should see my beginning Ableton folders. Blank, all of them. I didn’t create shit except when Goldfacemoneywatch asked for album noises.
Then for maybe a week, I’d pull myself together and start making sound effects, only to never open Ableton for the remainder of the year.
2023 was the year I started writing music again.
After only recording two songs in Maschine and eight or so finished tracks in Ableton, I was determined to write an actual discography.
I’ve since released 111 songs.
The trick was selling my hardware synthesizers and learning how to make mud-pies, resampling, and OTT.
I’m going to continue with my limited setup: Headphones and a MacBook Air. I want to show people you don’t need all the fancy gear and equipment. It’s computer music after all.
On March 31st, I released Cooking Sausages on Seroquel. Ten tracks in fourteen days. (EDIT: I added more tracks) A continued exploration of experimental and psychedelic bass through crunchy neuro wobbles, resampled distortion, and compressed chaos. The project explores genre defying bass music: techno, halftime, dubstep, riddim, experimental beats; Cooking Sausages On Seroquel defies routine and embraces the unknown. I got bored. Ya know?
Writing similar tunes all the time. Time to change it up.
I’m looking for my sound – Landing somewhere between the hyper glitch hellscapes of Woulg, the galactic gurgles of glitch hop, to the metallic clashes of Bleep Bloop. Don’t forget a smidgen of the west coast beat scene.
Tsuruda, Woolymammoth, and Flying Lotus.
I’m not saying my production matches these artists, but you can probably hear the acknowledgment in my tracks. The influence, the hours listened. I love the more chaotic and intrusive sounds paired with psychedelic, experimental, and/or cinematic symphonies. Countered with the high octane, moshpit energy of riddim. It’s kind of a weird bag. Especially with the attention to ambient drum and bass, saw waves. Barrages of reverb.
Changing the flow, I offered songs like Try 2 Smile Goddamit and Bernie Sanders Bends The Knee to the techno gods. Exemplifying experimental and glitchy sound design over kicking grooves and approachable dance music.
I still have a long ways to go producing listenable music, especially since I lost production time to health concerns, legal battles, and general moping/psychological resistance, but I’ve been hounding to make up for lost time.
I love video games, so its about approaching Ableton or Final Cut Pro like a new or saved game of Minecraft, or working toward the next Prestige on Call of Duty; staying motivated, goal oriented, and having fun. I learned this from a stream with Subtronics who said he noticed better results after replacing daily gaming habits with daily production. The more songs you write, the better habits you build, the better you become, quicker too.
I’ve read and asked music forums how long it takes to achieve worthwhile results. The answer lingered around 5-7 years for artists to start coming into their own sound, to 10-15 years for artists to become headliners. Fifteen to twenty years are generally the pioneers of modern bass music. Eprom, Nosia, Seppa, Kursa, Tipper, Mike Wallis, G Jones, Resonant Language. But it varies, and remember it’s not a race. Bad years occur, shit happens. Life happens. And the journey isn’t always linear. Some people learn quicker than others, and others are more disciplined about getting to the studio and working. Again, it’s never a simple answer to how soon you’ll see your results.
Just work hard. Have fun. Don’t ruin it for yourself.
(A Note to self)
Anyway… The track “I Don’t Trust AOC” proved difficult to master and I might re-upload a finalized version later, who knows…. but the rest of the tracks are ready to go.
Again, I’m exploring my sound and tackled a variety of genres compared to the typical neuro or dubstep beat. ALSO. The writing process was more exhilarating with the recent release of Serum 2. While typically an Ableton Whore. Serum 2 is cool as fuck. Spectral and granular synthesis, a sampler and advanced wavetable functionalities? Insane. A majority of the sounds are made in Serum 2 with little to no post processing in Ableton. Extraordinary.
This project also explores the potential of Trash 2. I’m going to start mixing my songs better I swear, and the answer lies in distortion and limiting with Trash 2. I can start pushing my sounds and squashing the compression, giving me more control over volume and mixing. Wish me luck.
Also, random thought. Do I upload all posts to Substack? I’m thinking no. Maybe? Substack should house nonfiction “essays” and short stories, while maybe the THEBADBOOB.com offers the uncensored glimpse into my work – content exclusive to the THEBADBOOB.com, blogs and the updated portfolio of work, especially release notifications like this about music or music videos.
I’m still in love with the idea of hosting my own site and managing my own content. If anything happens to the hosting provider, I export the content and import directly into another hosting provider. Substack is rented land, although the rents cheap and the landlord’s chill as hell, so I might as well use both. I just want to create an incentive to visit thebadboob.com over substack. Although any visibility is better than none.
If you dropped by THEBADBOOB.com in the last few days, you were likely confused and met with a fresh white page with broken links, no pictures, and a website void of the broody, cyberpunk landing zone I spent over a year creating. In my last post, I mentioned a migration process from wordpress.com to wordpress.org. Well let me tell you what happened. Because it’s fucking annoying and maybe I can help you avoid a problem.
If you’re like me, you didn’t know there was a difference between the two. WordPress.com? WordPress.org? Must be the same. WRONG.
WordPress.COM is a hosted platform for page creation, blog posts, and website management. WordPress.COM is a website, meaning wordpress.com is HOSTED. Just like Medium.com pages live on Medium.com, or Facebook on Facebook. The website/blog lives on the rented land of wordpress.com, subject to Terms of Service and WordPress moderators.
The website is more “straight out of the box”. I go to wordpress.com, sign up, purchase or transfer a domain, or use the .wordpress.com address provided for free. And just like that, I’m posting, blogging, running a website, store, whatever. All I need is access to wordpress.com.
How does the website make money? WordPress.com offers monthly/yearly plans, offering increased gigabytes for pictures or videos in your media library that appear on your blog, and sometimes a free domain for a year. Upgraded plans also allow access to plugins, access to themes, upgraded statistics, Google analytics, and access to further customization options at the least.
When starting a blog or website, I didn’t want any barriers to entry. I started with zero dollars and searched for the cheapest and most accessible methods to start running a site. I didn’t want to start a ‘blogger’ under Google. Tumblr. Yikes. Tumblr was bought by Yahoo in 2013 and my account was scrubbed from top to bottom. All posts and reposts, gone. To make matters worse, After changing ownership over the past decade, my Tumblr page was outright deleted. I’m not a fan of a website that changes on a dime, that puts content and art at risk of permanent deletion. A website that morphs entirely based on ownership, who’s in control.
What seemed like a safe archive was really a library of Alexandria.
After searching for a new platform, I stumbled upon Substack. The free speech champion of modern independent journalism. But after the lessons of Tumblr and witnessing the mass migration to and from X after Elon’s takeover, I was reminded of how fast things change. A free speech website one day, is a tyrannical overlord the next. See Youtube, in general. See the Twitter Files.
I loved Substack’s simplicity, minimalism, focus on content, and ability to draw an audience and build a community. Not to mention video uploads, podcasts and live streaming, live chats, a newsletter, and the big names on the platform like Matt Taibbi and Matthew Shellenberger. Substack does the heavy lifting for most writers who just want to wipe their hands of the website debacle. However, again, I’m renting land from somebody else. I don’t own my content and I’m subject to moderations, censorship, bans, shadow bans, and the like. While Substack has upheld their ethos over the years protecting free speech, including when pressed on my own content, I’m still hesitant to put my eggs in one basket. Also there’s a slight uniformity to the appearance. Everyone’s homepage appears the same. Drifting further from the peak possibilities experienced in the late nineties, early 2000’s in the sphere of web design. The creative control. The customization. The individuality. Substack held a few coloring tools and site arrangements, but essentially you’re stuck in the box.
That’s when I found wordpress.com, like I was saying earlier. I used the free plan, using Nicholasrubinoff.wordpress.com as my domain.
The task appeared easy enough. I’ll create a wordpress website, customize my own site, and I’ll have total creative control, I thought, My own site, my own rules, my own show. Impenetrable. Says here “WordPress is used by 43.5% of all websites on the internet”. Even better. WRONG. WRONG. STOP. IDIOT.
Fast forward a year and I’m being censored on WordPress.com as the moderators remove my blogs. It doesn’t matter I upgraded to the personal plan and received my own domain – Thebadboob.com. I’m still under the control of wordpress.com and a team of moderators.
Not to mention my art style involves graphic, fictional depictions of violence, sex, and content considered taboo. From my comics, to the pastel portraits, to the pending short stories, poems, short films, and animations; I plan on exploring what Jung called THE SHADOW.
The repressed and often darker aspects of humanity.
The cherry on top? My occasional political outbursts and claims of psychic activity (intuition), and comments on society, narcissism.
In the aftermath, THEBADBOOB.com required a safe host. Turns out wordpress.com isn’t my own show after all. Turns out the website still lives on somebody else’s server. Matt Mullenweg.
Enter WordPress.org. WordPress.org is a free, open source code you download onto your computer. This download paired with a hosting provider’s plan, allows access to “self-hosting” capabilities. Meaning the site is YOURS. And free to move.
I wish I skipped wordpress.com all together.
Why? First of all, as a high volume artist with tons of photographs, videos, paintings, drawings, whatever. The 6gb or 13gb plans provided by wordpress.com are easily fillable. After a year, I’ve maxed out the 6gb personal plan.
You’re going to save money buying a domain from Namescheap.com, Porkbun.com, Cloudflare.com, or Bluehost.com. And most providers will offer a domain free with the purchase of hosting services for a year.
Above you’ll see HostGator offers a free domain for a year with purchase of service, and charges $3.75 for the first month before charging $10.99 per month.
This deal buys you a domain for a year, plus you’ll have access to 10gb of storage instead of wordpress.com’s 6gb, including various tools from WordPress.com’s “Business Plan”: access to plugins, customization, premium themes, statistics, and more. All the benefits of switching to wordpress.ORG
BlueHost Pricing
BlueHost offers extreme deals on storage and monthly plans, incentivizing you to save money while taking your brand to the next level with a domain name and self-hosted site.
Furthermore, the website on wordpress.ORG is transferrable. Technically you’re not hosting the website yourself, but you’re taking your website and finding the rightful home. Somewhere you wont be harassed, censored, moderated, or suspended and banned. You build the website on wordpress.org’s software while hosting your service on a provider like HostGator or Blue Host. And if one day, HostGator or Blue Host doesn’t like your content, receives pressure to censor, faces security breaches, or outright goes under, the site doesn’t sink with the ship, you export to another hosting provider and start where you left off. This is the key. You don’t have to go through the painful process of transferring your site from wordpress.com to a wordpress.org format, something not attained easily by your computer normy.
The process of transferring from wordpress.com to wordpress.org is often manual, leaving broken media, links, pages, and blogs. The only way to avoid this grueling transition is buying the wordpress.com Business Plan for a month and using a plugin to transfer your site, or hire your new hosting provider to transfer the site for you. Or you know a computer programmer. Somebody who reads and writes code. Some hosting providers also offer the migration service for free upon service sign up. Worth looking into. The charge is usually around $100-$200.
This is my warning.
With the money I spent on WordPress.com’s Personal Plan and domain. The psychological torment of failing .xml file imports and site transfers. The need to purchase support. The inability to access the full features of WordPress like plugins, and not to mention the censorship – I regret starting with WordPress.COM.
Once your site lives in the WordPress.org format, it’s easy to transfer your blog/site from provider to provider due to plugins. The trouble is copying the WordPress.com site and importing the information into WordPress.org because wordpress.com doesnt have plugins unless you buy the most expensive plan. A customer representative from my hosting provider warned unless I utilized the transfer methods mentioned earlier, my entire site risks being void of media and content. Fuck.
The move to WordPress.ORG was inevitable and the process of transitioning was a major headache that cost days of my life. Routing, rerouting, moving domains, uploading and deleting the media library, realizing my entire site is broken, attempting a fix, realizing no fix exists, template and theme malfunctions, manual recoveries, bad advice, good advice, before eventually quitting and retuning to wordpress.com.
I don’t like accepting defeat, but here I am defeated.
So please, if you’re looking to start a blog or website:
Buy a cheap domain.
Find a cheap, reliable hosting provider.
(Often this is accomplished together)
Download WordPress.ORG and enjoy building your website.
I’ve been lazy updating my blog. Lazy uploading the latest art pieces, animations, EP’s, videos, etc. Too much time is focused on Meta’s instagram or Twitter’s X. Websites that aren’t my own turf. The whole point of building a website was creating something OF MY OWN. The difficulty of censorship increases when somebody’s not bound to the restrictions and moderations of big tech. While I trust Elon Musk’s recent takeover of twitter, the company’s free speech and censorship rules rely upon the life of one man. Another reason we owe Musk our thanks; for creating a space of open discussion – For providing the alternative narratives to mainstream propaganda. However I cannot become sole dependent on his platform, especially since a self-owned website provides the necessary organization for my anti-algorithm content.
I’m working on building better discipline and not succumbing to the pressures of managing my own website. Part of the problem is technology – slow internet, WordPress crashes, computer glitches, an outdated MacBook Air. I live on top of a mountain and swear to God the internet works better some days rather than others. When the internet works and WordPress cooperates, working on the website is no hassle. Unfortunately, this hasn’t been the case with enormous photo galleries, gif downloads, and even the most minute edits. Not to mention dwindling website space.
Instead of buying more website space; however, I couldn’t help but notice the impending need to re-register my domain. During this process I plan on moving from wordpress.com to wordpress.org. The transition will finalize the website as my own independent endeavor. Instead of renting space from wordpress.com and succumbing to the rules and restrictions of their Terms of Use, I’ll handpick a host with the same focus on anti-censorship and free speech.
With the addition of Cloudflare, a website security service and domain registrar; for free, it’s possible to hide the host providing your web service and grant anonymity to your site’s IP address. Who doesn’t like the sound of safety and security from a free service?
Here is the follow-up LEGO animation to my previous post.
I am building skills at animations, enjoying the bloody special effects, creating sound effects, and sneaking produced music into the mix. It’s a grueling process, taking picture after picture, moving frame by frame, and hoping not to dislodge the camera, tripod, or figures. This video, reaching one minute long, took over twelve hours to produce. I’d argue half and half, between time spent shooting and editing.
It’s fun creating the story on the fly for such a short project, although will script and potentially storyboard a longer format video. I’m expecting a few more animations tests, potentially a music video or two, and then will pursue a short film or feature. I imagine I’ll build the videos longer and longer, minute by minute until tackling hours of stop motion. Christ.
I present to you, Nightclub Catastrophe. A stop motion animation test.
I’m assembling old LEGO pieces for stop motion animations. Beats live-action films by myself for the time being. Although don’t worry, short films are inevitable. In the meantime, I’m continuing LEGO animation films where I left off, and aiming for a a long format, 10-30 minute movie. However, In order to accomplish serious projects, I’ve gotta test movement, blood and gore, special effects, frame rate, video editing skills, etc. I’ve gotta start small.
So in my return to LEGO stop motion, I present to you “Mob Hit”, my first LEGO animation since 2006.
I wrote this EP after a month break from Ableton. After experiencing problems with my hard drives, I took a rest-bit from technology and focused on paintings, drawings, pastels, and videography. This analog process of creation allowed the mind to recover from digital overload. A nature break, we’ll say.
Returning to Ableton, I focused on ambient auras and decapitating decibels of bass. I’m continuing the exploration of the dark and glitched. Punishing malfunctions and borderline bad beats. Teetering the line between heady, introspective sound design and flat out noise. I thank my listeners for taking a chance, braving the corrupted collisions and whirlpools of wub.
“Halftime Homers” and “I could use a lil USAID” are two of my favorite tracks I’ve written, and tracks like “Jungle Garbage” are attempts to solidify myself into the genre of experimental bass.
I still have a lot of work. Much producing to be done.
But… I’m beginning to see the fruits of my labor. The hard work is paying off, judging by the results of these tracks.
“Naive-Expressionism”, the name of the EP, is the genre of art I classify myself.
From beats cooked in 2-3 hours, drawing and paintings done in mass, to the warfare of words; the majority of my art is produced in a barrage of emotion and represents the “outsider artist” – untrained and self-taught. Utilizing my sensitivity, I attempt to dispel my creative output like a hand-twisted sponge, dousing the canvas in the raw and gritty.
Releasing the project yesterday on my 30th birthday, I felt compelled to provide an honest representation of my production skills, and sat down over the course of a week and produced the “NAIVE EXPRESSIONISM EP”.
Producing electronic music is not achieved overnight, despite my intentions.
A process of learning sound design, composition, software, music theory, file management, mixing, mastering. Marketing. Over the past year, I’ve uploaded all finished tracks to provide a representation of my process. A “started from the bottom” proof of purchase.
Personally, I don’t think people understand the difficulty of producing electronic music. I know I didn’t. And by providing an honest journey, maybe others won’t be dissuaded from sticking with the art. It takes time, really.
The portfolio also proves that I don’t require any ghost producers.
I am self-taught, self produced. The proof is in the pudding.
US taxpayer dollars were going to be spent on the following items, all which have been cancelled: – $10M for "Mozambique voluntary medical male circumcision" – $9.7M for UC Berkeley to develop "a cohort of Cambodian youth with enterprise driven skills" – $2.3M for "strengthening…
Unless you’ve been living under a rock for the past month or succumb to a daily prescription of ignorance, a sedative most likely, then you’re well aware of @DOGE: Short for the Department of Government Efficiency.
DOGE: A promise to cut waste and expose government corruption, vocalized by President Trump and Elon Musk during the presidential campaign, and further escalated with the establishment of DOGE upon a 2024 election victory. Was the search and seizure of USAID a blindside to American voters? Hardly, we voted to cut government waste, to turn the gun on the system blowing US tax dollars, but we didn’t realize how quick Musk and Trump would race to collapse USAID. We’re not used to government efficiency or speed.
A comparison from the year 2000 compared to today on the U.S. National Debt Clock reveals shocking discoveries like 2000’s $5.7 trillion national debt compared to today’s $36 trillion. The more than doubling of our military spending, and a $1.7 trillion dollar federal spending compared to today’s $7.1 trillion. Social security and federal healthcare costs quadrupled over the twenty five year period. The debt per citizen reaching $107,211 compared to 2000’s $20,385. Does anybody see the benefits to the outrageous expansion of government? The destruction of the dollar? Does anybody else notice the deterioration of our entire society?
Despite the more obvious: wars funded in Afghanistan and Iraq, Ukraine, Israel and Gaza, bombing the Houthis’s in Africa, the catastrophe of mass spending during covid, and an overall mismanagement of the dollar, it appears for the past sixty years, since the origin of USAID – U.S. foreign interests were funded and laundered through a rogue bureaucracy.
Did these programs even exist? Receive funding? What was the true purpose of funding $10M for “Mozambique voluntary medical male circumcision”, as we’ve learned the Central Intelligence Agency buries dirty laundry in the bottom of the hamper that is USAID. We’re learning the right raped USAID in the name of national security and national interests; spying and regime change, and the left lured USAID into woke agendas and spread socialism, primarily to destabilize the government’s political opponents. USAID relation to worker’s strikes, riots, anti-government transgenderism, and the squashing of political opponents through purchasing judges, prosecutors, and the media is further expanded upon by expert Mike Benz, who recently appeared on The Shawn Ryan Show, Joe Rogan, and Tucker Carlson this week to unmask the monster of USAID. Benz who also discusses the role of USAID in mass migration (1.5 billion to 200 NGOs responsible for comfortable migration process), the weaponization of transgenders for regime change, even to the US taxpayer funded impeachment of Donald Trump.
A lot of the USAID funding ties back to our discussions of narcissism, and weaponizing moral or woke agendas to capture the hearts and minds of a political movement. Authoritarian progressivism. An MK-ULTRA level brainwashing contrived of transgender acceptance, sensitivity to migrants, and female reproductive rights. A trojan horse. Double Agent. Boogeyman. But behind the mask of the movement is NOT a well intentioned, morally motivated good samaritan. Instead we’re witnessing the cloak and dagger. The snake in the grass. The narcissism.
Power hungry elites like George and Alex Soros, Klaus Schwab. The New World Order with crosshairs on civilization. A pump and dump scheme of buying corrupt politicians, wreaking moral and physical havoc on society, only to return and claim the ashes. An attempt to create a power vacuum beckoning the seizure of personal rights and liberties. Communism at its core. A disintegration of the state to implement globalization. A one world government devised by secret societies and the wealthy elite.
The sentiment seems a bit far out, but for conspiracy theorists and independent journalists, the uncovering of USAID is a grand slam, home run. A peak into the weaponization of state funded media against political opponents, a peak into censorship, and potentially the excavating of the treasure chest; the origins of COVID-19. A bombshell, Mike Benz is quoted in podcasts saying the lengths of the uncovering will take fifty plus years. No shortage of material, only a shortage of reliable and un-bought, investigative journalists. Non-NPCs willing to put names and careers in the crosshairs of the elites.
Journalists like Matt Taibbi, Walter Kirn, Michael Shellenberger, and Glenn Greenwald. Reliable, independent, and established news providers in the age of “Mis/Disinformation”. Journalists whose wall of information surpasses the whit and manipulation of Squealer The Pig: the mainstream media.
X.com proves a fierce weapon against the global elites, politicians, and puppets who dream of controlled conversations, internet ineptitude, and barbed wire fences. X not only serves as the database for DOGE’s transparency, but utilizes the “town square” backbone to generate conversation between users, incentivizes citizen journalism, provides space for uncensored media uploads, and factual immediacy with Grok 2 and community notes. Without X, the narrative would change at the wand of elites who own almost every media company.
When people say Elon saved western civilization, are they dick sucking, kiss assing, elite worshipping? Or did the man buy the last remaining sliver of free speech on social media? As a regular Meta user, who faces restrictions and censorship, who couldn’t advertise political content, I’d argue yes.
Try pushing the RussiaGate hoax with modern day X, censoring a president, removing accounts spreading the Hunter Biden laptop. Maybe on twitter, but not X. X is pivotal in the fight for free speech aka the fight for freedom. And when I see J.D. Vance clamp down on our allies at Munich over freedom of speech abuse and the unclear, dystopian future of Europe, I can’t help but find the lunacy in labeling this administration “a bunch of fascists”.
Fascists like free speech?
The same people screaming ‘fascist’ are the same people marching in anti-DOGE protests funded by the perpetrators of USAID corruption.
A complete fucking brainwash.
Because remember, the same methods of propaganda aimed oversees are being utilized against US citizens. This is the heart of USAID corruption: The Civil Wing of the Military Industrial Complex. Media manipulation.
And remember, we voted for Musk and Trump to gut USAID, the federal reserve, the pentagon.
What’s the worry? Musk’s going to steal our private information? The same information he could’ve stolen a million times over at the head of PayPal? Musk’s going to build an oligarchy, removing any competitors while undoing the tight restrictions of DEI and government regulation? I find this difficult to believe. Elon also doesn’t strike me as a narcissist. Which may anger many of you.
So while the mainstream media calls an end to consitutional law, urges people to the streets, and wages war against Trump and Musk.
Maybe it’s time to start asking what the mainstream media’s done for you?
Does the media give you a picture perfect perspective of the world, or are you willingly falling into the hands of the puppet master?
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